On being a broom (and why I can’t just relax and enjoy shit)

“I realized why I have a hard time relaxing and taking actual vacations and even enjoying the holidays. As a child all of the times that most children have ‘off’ to play and relax and do their own thing, I never had. We never had summer break. We took Nov-Jan off every year instead, and during those two months we never rested.”

Mental Health — From Shame to Seeking Help, Part Six: Unashamed of Taking Evil Pills

“I felt like all these people were flocking around me to praise God, without really caring about the state of my mind, body, or heart. They just wanted to hear a testimony. There, with the stress, the frustration at church, and the knowledge my solution was a villified little pill, I had a panic attack in the middle of all those women.”